Dark Times, Towards the Light: A Healing Journey Update

Dark Times, Towards the Light: A Healing Journey UpdateI was discharged from hospital on Thursday, and am so happy to be home. I am okay. I had “not-a-stroke,” but we aren’t entirely sure what it is.

I was admitted on Wednesday afternoon, because my right side suddenly went numb and felt like it had collapsed. I had weakness, loss of sensation and numbness in my right side from head to foot. I still have these symptoms, but they’re better than they were.

I’ve had All Of The Tests from heart trace to CT scan, everything is clear so that’s good news. The doctors think perhaps it’s related to my pre-existing conditions.

Grace's hospital room

I’m home and safe and in the best position to heal. But taking everything moment by moment and going from there. I may be extra slow replying to emails and things so please bear with me.

If you would like to leave a positive message that can make me smile, it would be truly appreciated, but any recommendations on treatments or possible causes can be sent to Linus via Linus AT healing-boxes.com Thank you.

This is simply another twist on my healing journey, it’s tough right now but I anticipate further healing. It’s my job in this moment to love and nourish my body and give it space to settle & heal.

“We think that the point is to pass the test or overcome the problem, but the truth is that things don’t really get solved. They come together and they fall apart. Then they come together again and fall apart again. It’s just like that. The healing comes from letting there be room for all of this to happen: room for grief, for relief, for misery, for joy.”

– Pema Chödrön, When Things Fall Apart: Heartfelt Advice for Hard Times.

Right now I’m only just past the crisis moment, and mostly sleeping, but I’m trying to make sure I achieve one thing every day, big/small/amazing/trivial – doesn’t matter – just something.

“This is your body,
your greatest gift,
pregnant with wisdom you do not hear,
grief you thought was forgotten,
And joy you have never known…
If you can listen to the wisdom of your body,
love this flesh and bone,
dedicate yourself to its mystery,
you may one day
find yourself
smiling from your mirror.”

– Marion Woodman

I wish you a wonderful festive season and will be back blogging in the new year. In the mean time, check out my previous festive posts and do follow my healing adventures on Twitter and Instagram.