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Dear heart, it’s the end of term and summer hols, finally. What a journey this school year has been! I have been quiet here; spending my energy in my client work, processing all my learning and caring. I’ve curated my favourite trailblazing healing resources, inspirations, proclamation and motivation this month – dive in…

Yes, I want to attend the Rebel Heroine Retreat! Do you want to take action, but in a way that actually makes something happen? By which I mean, in a way that is effective but sustainable? So often we see activism and self-care placed at opposite ends of the spectrum, but what if activism IS self-care? Want to know more? Read more here and don’t wait to head over to the Rebel Heroine Retreat.

I love working with dreams, in my journals, in my body, in the world. But Dyana Valentine goes even deeper, working with the unedited scene of sleep, dreams and symbols…she knows what we really, truly need to hear cannot be gleaned by the waking, editing mind. I have been blessed to experience a Woke Up Knowing with Dyana and it still resonates and guides me 7 years later. Check out Dyana’s Patreon and let your dreams live.

I am looking forward to reading The Collected Schizophrenias and think you may too, check it out and pre-order here.

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Why I wrote Beyond the Boundaries

I have been bed bound and house bound, through illness and pain. I tried to fight against the limits, to circumnavigate them, to ignore them, to expand them. Then I arrived here, at living with well within my own four walls.

I realised that I could be empowered, fabulous and joyful – right now. Not when I’d finally cured myself against all the doctor’s prognoses or when I’d finally ‘got better’, because what is getting better? When does one reach it? How does one realise? Is it when you can do what you did before – before you became ill, before you had caring responsibilities or before the difficult thing(s) happened?

But we are different now, we’ve gone through something extraordinary, and in our survival, we’ve grown extraordinary ourselves.

You can’t find a way back to ‘before’, but you can find a way onwards to live well. So can I.

I still live with pain and symptoms and yes, I’m still living with and managing the effects of the conditions every day. But I am happier (and in many ways healthier) than when I got ill. So in that way, I have got better. There has been true healing.

Healing is different from curing. We may not be cured, we may never go back to the life we had before we were sick, we may never live a life 100% free of the conditions we are managing, but we can all be healed, even those dying can be healed.

“Sometimes healing is not about getting better as much as about letting go of everything that isn’t you. All of the expectations, all the beliefs and becoming who you are.”

– Rachel Naomi Remen

Healing can be of the moment, noticing some part of your body of your body which feels good or something in your life that you are pleased about. That despite all the pain, fear, exhaustion, problems, that there is still, some part of your life that brings you some ease for a second and a smile.

This is what we will be looking towards here. In this work some find physical healing, some people recover, some don’t, but that’s not the point here, it’s more of a side effect…

We are looking for healing and living well and we can all achieve that.

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What to do after spending 2+ hours scrolling on social media text on photograph of rose garden, soft focus, 2 pink roses on bottom left in focus

Have you ever looked up from your device and wondered where the last hour (or two, or more) of your life went?

Wondered who spitefully replaced your spine with a series of inflexible sticks and how they managed it?

Felt sick from all the information and stimulation you’d taken in and despite all those ‘DIY’, ‘5 Easy Steps to Fabulous’ * articles, you still felt absolutely confused about where to begin or go from here?

Have you then, actually, just collapsed further, because it turns out, binge watching/scrolling may have it’s own health risks that just aren’t printed on the side of the packet.

I have been there my dears, This used to happen to me all.the.time.

(I mean, there’s a reason I quit my smartphone and smart devices)

It generally happened when I was extra sick, or in a flare.  I felt like being in my body, close to the symptoms, feeling it all, was just intolerable. My iPhone was easy, distracting. It took me out body for a time and that gave me a break from pain I didn’t know how to handle or bear.

This is not another quit your iPhone or Facebook article** in fact, today I’d like to talk to you not about how to prevent the internet hangover (I have a great interview with the founder of Digital Detox, Brooke about conscious internet use here  and self-care maven Mara Glatzel on finding true restoration and avoiding ‘junk food rest’ here.)

Instead, I want to talk about what to do once you realise that you got hooked in. Where do we go from the post-screen malaise?

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Gratitude and Grace List: Start of Term edition. Including myth, magic, kicking kyriarchy, lavish literary reads and sequin appreciation

Inspired by my dear friend Gala Darling, I’m taking my love lists out of my (gold, sparkly) journal and sharing them with you.

Little Things I Love:

I am beginning my last taught term at college (I’m studying psychotherapeutic counselling). I have been deep in essays, clinical placement and I’m still there. But it was lovely to have an easter break, to paint, to write, to sleeeep.

Here are some of the things I am enjoying right now:

Listening to BBC Radio 4 * My new journal, which is marbled and sparkly! * Not having a smartphone – it’s my 3rd month and I am feeling only relief and gratitude at this point – also, for my privilage of being able to choose to go smartphone free * Seeing the apple tree getting even more beautiful with a mist of green leaves, buds and spring-time gloriousness * The poems of Rilke * Finding stacks of my favourite books in a charity shop * My sequined cardigan * My red vegan boots * Daffodils – in the garden, on my table, the scent * Seeing violets in the woods * Working on my dissertation – so exciting! * Painting with watercolours * Planning my birthday retreat and celebrations! * Seeing moorhens building their secret nests on the lakes * rose, turmeric and cacao tea * learning rag time on the harp * Self-compassion week in the Trailblazers’ Cafe *

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Dear Grace Q & A: How do I cope with anxiety/triggers when I'm in public? Text above out of focus photo of forest. Below photograph of older black woman with red hair hugging a younger black woman to her.

Dear Grace Q &A: what can I do if I’m outside my home, like shopping or working and I have anxiety? If I encounter a painful/difficult situation or I have an intrusive thought or memory that throws me off balance? I can’t use my usual tools like meditating or grounding exercises and I’m stuck on how to handle this.

I really hear you, my dear. On how difficult it is to cope with these difficulties when out and about. When you are in an environment you can’t control or make healing choices that fit you, it’s tough to handle these difficulties like anxiety, triggers or painful memories.

N.B: What I am hearing in this question is how to handle triggers, including for anxiety. And while this is a larger question, and my answer can’t constitute medical advice, I can give my opinion on options that might be available/useful. I am addressing interpersonal difficulties here rather than micro-agressions from systemic prejudice like racism, transphobia, disablism, sexism, homophobia and similar. While all too often these are at the root of the interactions that wound and wear on us daily, they are more indepth and nuanced than I can address in this single blog.

When we encounter someone/thing that throws us, several things might be happening. Our boundaries might have been crossed, we could be feeling shaken, our feelings could be hurt or overwhelming. The situation could also be triggering a mental/emotional/sensory flashback.

All these things can, I believe, be handled, but they can be handled differently. I think it’s important to break it down as it explains why something so ‘small’ can actually be really, really big.

In the case of boundaries being crossed, I think a very helpful thing to do is to get to safety as much as possible.

This might mean calling a friend who is safe, moving to another area, leaving the rude person or situation etc.

Sometimes we don’t realise a boundary has been breached until a lot later. That’s totally understandable, at that point, we can still take action to make ourselves as safe as we can. To reassure and comfort ourselves.

Sometimes it can be as small as stepping away to ‘take a phone call’ and leaving a message with a friend, or going to the bathroom to doing a breathing exercise, journal, listen to music, read a few pages of a favourite book you carry in your bag or similar.

If feelings are overwhelming, taking care of ourselves is paramount.

Read: How to cope with emotional overwhelm

If we have been triggered or flashback, then it can be helpful to come back to the present if that’s possible and safe.

Things like counting all the blue objects in a room, or the ceiling tiles or floor tiles, or noticing where we are now and what’s present in this situation for all our senses, can help bring us back.

So can things like gripping the chair we are sitting on, flexing our feet/legs or hands, if that’s possible. Rocking a little or wiggling bottom on the chair can be very grounding…

In terms of a memory emerging that we have trouble coping with, it can be useful to contain the memory safely, without trying to push it down into ourselves.

Remember the Pensive in Harry Potter? Can a journal be a Pensive? Can a note titled Pensive on your smartphone contain the memory for now, and hold it until you are in a safe, held place to process it? Can you take a selfie of that moment and let the camera contain what’s happening. To witness it for you. And then you can still be able to be in the present and get yourself safe?

One thing that can be useful is to have a more extensive grounding ritual and then each time you practice it, have a small movement that feels like the beginning/completion.

Say, you might begin by putting your hand on your belly and taking a breath. Then the whole grounding ritual could unfold as you need e.g body scan, mindfulness, rooted visualisation. You could end the ritual with the same small gesture.

This then becomes something very evocative of the overall grounding. And it’s such a small movement that you could potentially do it in any situation, using it as a helpful association to bring the sensation of grounding to the fore.

Another option is to use an anchor. Often my clients have used a photo on their phone, or a piece of jewellery they always wear, as something that symbolises the now, comfort and stability.

If triggered they focus on it – it’s very discreet, just looking at your phone, you can have an ‘anchor album’ of photos on phone – and looking at the picture, thinking about the senses, the love for the image…it could be a landscape you feel safe in, a safe space in your home, picture of a nest, picture of a loved one or animal.

It’s an anchor if triggered/spiralling thoughts, to help bring you back.

How do you take care of yourself in challenging situations? Let me know in the comments. 

P.S You might also like Dear Grace Q & A: How do I explain that my chronic illness and life aren’t a tragedy? and Dear Grace Q & A: 7 steps to your business come back after chronic illness. Read all the Dear Grace columns here.

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