CW: Fat phobia, body shaming I do it too—some days I look at my body and wish I looked different. I visualise how I would look if I were stronger or fitter. If my body were sleek rather than sore and swollen.  They’re all so tempting, those narratives. If I push and push, I’ll somehow break through an invisible, unspecified internal barrier. Then emerge the other side; svelte, joyful, filled with ease. In the films, the training montage shows challenge but it’s always overcome. The protagonist is seen to have the resources and capacity to overcome such challenges. They don’t begin exhausted. I can’t imagine my body beginning anything other…